MY LIFE MY REASON

Upon awakening this morning I realized that the years spent raising my children has swiftly come to an end. As the tears, not of sadness but of joy, slowly ran down my cheeks, I asked myself where the past 31 years had gone. Throughout the many trails which we’d travelled, they were there following me, giving me courage even when at times I could not find the courage within myself. I can still see their little eyes looking upon me, trustingly, filled with hope and anticipation as I maneuvered us through this vast universe of the unknowing. Although, many times they’d had reasons to doubt me, but because of our many conversations, and many tears together, they knew that there was no recipe for being a good parent. They knew that I could only give them the best that I knew to give and after that, I could only toss all which remained unfulfilled up to heaven’s gate.

Along this journey from birth to manhood, I could not teach my sons to be men, but I could teach them how to treat a woman. I taught them to communicate their expectations, to be patient when they didn’t have the answer, to know who they love and to stand by her and most of all to wait upon God.

As for my daughter…I only wish that when I was her age, that I could have possessed her strength. Her desire and passion for life is astounding! She has been my mirror reflecting back to me that which she has been taught; to never allow someone to abuse her acceptingly. To grab hold of life with the dawning of each new day and embrace it for all that it has to offer is her daily quest. She has learned to tap into the strength of all her mothers before her and receive of their wisdom and determination. When I look upon her and see within her the strength of my mother, and all the strength that I have to offer her, I know that with her passion to succeed that she’ll survive in this world. I’ve taught her to continue to have hope in our male culture although the many of them hurt the few. I want her to believe that there are some out there who are loyal to home, loving as fathers, determine as leaders and passionate as lovers despite what she’d observed throughout her informative years within my environment. Most of all, I’ve watched as she’s learned to filter out the bad, accept the good, and push through life, grabbing hold and hanging on to what God has prepared for her.

Now, as for me as the tears slowly cease, I must admit that I am truly blessed above women for God has said this to be so. God saw fit to bless me with three wonderful children, children who are filled with passion for the future. Children who are seeking to pioneer their trails here in this world. Ones who I must now learn to embrace as friends and no longer as kids. Ones who see themselves as walking down similar paths as they mature in life, filled with courage and determination due to the wisdom they would have obtain from watching those who’ve paved the way for them.

As for now, no more tears….all is well! Where do I go and what do I do from here? Well, only God knows! But whatever lies ahead, I pray that God give me the courage and the strength to receive and embrace life as it happens!


THOUGHT FOR TODAY! The road less traveled is filled with sweet fragrances.